:) I just went through my "old" posts and found this one. It's worth publishing just to remind myself that the little things become the big things. I've been a little anxious about making progress on my latest BIG DREAM. This entry is from a time of great happiness and contentment when I knew I was doing all of the right things. Reminder to self,"Trust yourself, be kind."
No posts for a while... It's funny that I say that. I used to beat myself up about not doing something "perfectly" every single day. Then I started noticing some things. I've kept journals of some kind since I was about 15. I'd write the first ones at night in a spiral bound notebook and talk about things like my latest crush and what I was doing for homework. I'd write for a few days or weeks, then take an unplanned break because of school, a social life or a general lack of motivation and come back to SLAM myself about not writing in my journal.
When I consolidated years of writing a couple of years ago I had two bank box files filled with them! I destroyed some of the old high school books. It wasn't because they were incriminating. They were just boring and redundant. When re-reading them I did notice I was much happier in high school than I remembered. That was good. It was nice to have the old me talk to the current me and share that.
I enjoyed peeks into my everyday life as a young business professional and then mother. I saw my journey into a progressively more creative life. It's the little things I chose to do every day (or most days) that have helped me to grow and develop into a healthy, well rested, active, happy, etc, person. Those little things are what have made my life so special. The big things come. Recognition, a giant painting or exhibit, fitting into a gorgeous new dress, finishing a marathon. All of those things are built from the little choices I make every day. When I get up and do something different it's good to just enjoy that and keep looking at my goals. I'll get there. I always do!
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The other thing I learned from my past selves was that I need to be gentler with myself. Over time I'm VERY consistent. Thirty-five years of journaling can testify to that. I'm glad I didn't do it every day! I'd never be able to go through them all.
So, in spite of missed posts I know what I put in here is sufficient. In the meantime I stay busy. I've started filling my classes for fall! My commissions are plugging along; I continue my Master's Classes with David Gallup; spend time with my friends; take road trips...